...maybe not always so lighthearted

Interesting, over the course of the last month I have found that I have fond memories and miss some folks in my past it's not always the same feeling on the other side.  So often I have found myself trying to make others feel comfortable and make myself available for them, but it's not always the same and I end up on the other side of things wondering what happened?

My life is so different now from once before - but if you know me you know it HAD to be and there had to be some changes made.  With everything that I had to go through in my earlier years, if I didn't evolve and change I would have been stuck forever just simply going through the motions and maybe never able to be the person I am today.  My need for growth and survival outweighed other things. Walk a mile....or wait...walk just a few steps where I have been and you let me know what you would have done.   The person I started out to be is not the person I am now....it couldn't be.

The life that I have rebuilt is mine and I've built it with the love and support of my family.  I'll never forget where I came from, however, it does appear that some of where I came from has forgotten about me.   I'm exactly where I want to be in my life and can honestly say that I am not quite done just yet in my journey - I still predict MUCH more for me!

If you don't understand that - then go ahead and move on. Unfriend me, unfollow me, un-Link me. It's ok - I'll get over it as I have always done.

There is no sadness here - only wisdom gained.
This is short but needed to be put some place so it's out of my head.

HH 

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