Putting yourself first....

Sunday evening and here I sit....had a very nice weekend. Nothing too crazy, nothing too boring. Caught a movie with hubby on Friday night and had a 'stay in' date on Saturday night courtesy of a last minute sleepover....

...I did not get in my long run this weekend...and for that I must now beat up myself.

Saturday morning calls for a long run (lately 8-9 miles). On Saturday morning, it was raining at a pretty steady clip so I thought I would wait....and well one thing led to another and I couldn't make it out before we had to head out for other plans.

Sunday morning, waking up late (almost 10 am) I opted for some pancakes and sausage with my husband and took advantage of a quiet house for a change....

...as I sit here now I know you are all saying 'don't beat yourself up' and 'you deserve a break' ....and for that I agree.

I just hate when I know I am going to beat myself up over it.....

I have always been the one to take care of everyone else...that is how I got to be 250 lbs as a young adult. Everyone else was taken care of, I was not.

When I chose to change my life, I had to put myself first.

This doesn't mean I neglect my family...not one bit.

This means that I MAKE the time to take care of myself and work around or WITH my family and their schedule to make sure I can get it done. I talk a lot about pre planning and all of the work that goes into it. Without ANY of that, I wouldn't have made it. Without my family to support me in this, I wouldn't have made it.

It's not too late to get a run in (a short one) but as we wind down the day and dinner is on the grill I am resigned to the idea that tomorrow is another day and I will get up at 5:30 am and make sure I get that run in.....

....and I know I am the only one keeping score.

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  1. MichelleJune 13, 2010 at 7:00 PM

    You are taking care of youself...don't forget it one minute. Today was a perfect day to take care of "other things". Tomorrow is a new day and a perfect day to run. Rest easy tonight Heather, so tomorrow you can shine.

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